freefall to fly...

Ek wou laas week vreeslik graag 'n antwoord van die Here gehad het...  net 'n eenvoudige ja of nee!  Rooi ligte of Groen ligte volgens my eenvoudige vraag en ek het gehoop die Here stem saam met my, dat dit 'n maklike vraag is om te beantwoord.  Hy het baie duidelik aan my gesê VERTROU MY!  Geen ja, nee, groenlig of rooilig nie, nope net VERTROU MY!

​Ek is besig met 'n boek met die titel, Freefall to Fly.  Die inhoud self het nie veel toepassing in my lewe nie, maar die titel gryp my.  Ek dink dit is presies waar ek myself nou vind.  Dit is 'n redelike vreemde posisie vir my.  In die verlede het ek baie situasies hanteer uit vrees.  Jip!  Vrees, ek dink die beter beskrywing is engels...  uit 'n posisie van "FEAR".  Met "fear" stap "control" hand aan hand.  Nou dit is waar ek geloop het, ek het my lewe beheer, situasies probeer stuur in die rigting waar ek gevoel het dit moet gaan, deur pure vrees vir as dit nie in die rigting gaan waar ek voel dit is goed vir my nie.

Wel sover was ek ongelooflik onsuksesvol om my lewe in 'n rigting in te bestuur.  Die laaste week veral is ek gedwing om te kyk na hoe ek dinge in die verlede hanteer het en met dit het ek tot 'n ongelooflike realiteit besef gekom.  Fear en Control en dit is nie 'n maklike ding nie.  Ek het ook begin wonder hoekom, hoekom probeer ons so hard om ons lewe in 'n rigting te dwing.  Netso asof ons beter weet, asof ons presies weet wat die toekoms vir ons moet inhou.  Ek dink een van die dinge is verseker "fear of man" jip weer "fear", wat gaan mense sê, wat gaan mense dink.

Ek was vir die eerste keer na die Hillsong Colour Conference laas jaar 2015.  'n Ongelooflike ervaring en definitief iets om aan te beveel, in teendeel, ek is hoocked en gaan elke jaar van nou af.  Life changing girls!  

Daar het ek die eerste keer vir Charlotte Gambill hoor praat, sy is lead pastor van Life Church, julle kan haar bietjie gaan uitkyk http://charlottegambill.com, ongelooflike vrou.  

Een van haar praatjies het ek besonders geniet en het my al deur hierdie jaar vreeslik baie gehelp. Ek gaan dit vir julle in my eie woorde probeer oorvertel.  Ek het gegoogle, maar kon dit ongelukkig nie vind om die oorspronklike met julle te deel nie.  So here goes...

Dit begin met 'n Shunammite vrou in 2 Kings in die Bybel.  Die vrou het geen naam nie, wat vir my baie opvallend was...  

2 Kings 4:8-17 The Message (MSG)
8 One day Elisha passed through Shunem. A leading lady of the town talked him into stopping for a meal. And then it became his custom: Whenever he passed through, he stopped by for a meal.
9-10 “I’m certain,” said the woman to her husband, “that this man who stops by with us all the time is a holy man of God. Why don’t we add on a small room upstairs and furnish it with a bed and desk, chair and lamp, so that when he comes by he can stay with us?”
11 And so it happened that the next time Elisha came by he went to the room and lay down for a nap.
12 Then he said to his servant Gehazi, “Tell the Shunammite woman I want to see her.” He called her and she came to him.
13 Through Gehazi Elisha said, “You’ve gone far beyond the call of duty in taking care of us; what can we do for you? Do you have a request we can bring to the king or to the commander of the army?”
She replied, “Nothing. I’m secure and satisfied in my family.”
14 Elisha conferred with Gehazi: “There’s got to be something we can do for her. But what?”
Gehazi said, “Well, she has no son, and her husband is an old man.”
15 “Call her in,” said Elisha. He called her and she stood at the open door.
16 Elisha said to her, “This time next year you’re going to be nursing an infant son.”
“O my master, O Holy Man,” she said, “don’t play games with me, teasing me with such fantasies!”
17 The woman conceived. A year later, just as Elisha had said, she had a son.

In die Living Bible staan daar “O man of God,” she exclaimed, “don’t lie to me like that!”  So baie duidelik het sy hom nie geglo nie, sy het by nou al die hoop om 'n kind te hȇ op gegee.

2 Kings 4:18-21 The Message (MSG)
18-19 The child grew up. One day he went to his father, who was working with the harvest hands, complaining, “My head, my head!”
His father ordered a servant, “Carry him to his mother.”
20 The servant took him in his arms and carried him to his mother. He lay on her lap until noon and died.
21 She took him up and laid him on the bed of the man of God, shut him in alone, and left.

Nou hier is waar dit moeilik is.  Na al die jare wat sy nie kon kinders kry nie, is die kind aan haar gegee en toe as 'n klein seuntjie sterf hy in sy ma se arms.  Sy tel hom op en dra hom na waar alles begin het.  Sy dra hom na Elisha se kamer en lȇ hom op sy bed neer.  Sy raak nie histeries en gooi haarself op die vloer en sȇ ek het mos gesȇ niks goeds gebeur ooit met my nie, ek het gesȇ Elisha moenie vir my 'n kind gee nie, ek het geweet niks goeds gaan hiervan kom nie, nee, sy tel hom op en gaan lȇ hom neer by die begin.

2 Kings 4:22-25 The Message (MSG)
22 She then called her husband, “Get me a servant and a donkey so I can go to the Holy Man; I’ll be back as soon as I can.”
23 “But why today? This isn’t a holy day—it’s neither New Moon nor Sabbath.”
She said, “Don’t ask questions; I need to go right now. Trust me.”
24-25 She went ahead and saddled the donkey, ordering her servant, “Take the lead—and go as fast as you can; I’ll tell you if you’re going too fast.” And so off she went. She came to the Holy Man at Mount Carmel.

Sy vra haar man hom vir haar 'n donkie te kry, na hy vir haar vra wat gaan aan, is haar antwoord net moenie vrae vra nie, vertrou my ek kom terug so gou ek kan.  Sy saal haar donkie op en sy gaan na die wyse man, Elisha.  Sy raak nie histeries en vra haar man om dit te doen nie, nee sy saal haar donkie op en sy gaan na die man wat dit begin het.  Sy vra haar dienskneg om vinnig te gaan sonder om te stop.  

2 Kings 4:25-26 The Message (MSG)
25-26 The Holy Man, spotting her while she was still a long way off, said to his servant Gehazi, “Look out there; why, it’s the Shunammite woman! Quickly now. Ask her, ‘Is something wrong? Are you all right? Your husband? Your child?’”
She said, “Everything’s fine.”

Sy gryp nie vir Gehazi en vertel hom die hele storie nie, toe hy haar vra wat is fout sȇ sy, alles is reg, en sy beweeg aan op haar donkie na die wyse man Elisha.

2 Kings 4:27 The Message (MSG)
27 But when she reached the Holy Man at the mountain, she threw herself at his feet and held tightly to him.

Sy buig voor Elisha en sy hou styf vas aan hom.  Sy hou styf vas aan die belofte wat gemaak is.

2 Kings 4:32-37 The Message (MSG)
32-35 Elisha entered the house and found the boy stretched out on the bed dead. He went into the room and locked the door—just the two of them in the room—and prayed to God. He then got into bed with the boy and covered him with his body, mouth on mouth, eyes on eyes, hands on hands. As he was stretched out over him like that, the boy’s body became warm. Elisha got up and paced back and forth in the room. Then he went back and stretched himself upon the boy again. The boy started sneezing—seven times he sneezed!—and opened his eyes.
36 He called Gehazi and said, “Get the Shunammite woman in here!” He called her and she came in.
Elisha said, “Embrace your son!”
37 She fell at Elisha’s feet, face to the ground in reverent awe. Then she embraced her son and went out with him.

Dit is nie waar dit stop nie, hulle moes vlug vanwaar hulle woon en alles waarvoor hulle gewerk het agter los.  Vir sewe jaar moes hulle in 'n vreemde land woon, maar sy was gehoorsaam en hulle het soos Elisha beveel het getrek en alles agter gelaat.

2 Kings 8The Message (MSG) 8
​1-3 Years before, Elisha had told the woman whose son he had brought to life, “Leave here and go, you and your family, and live someplace else. God has ordered a famine in the land; it will last for seven years.” The woman did what the Holy Man told her and left. She and her family lived as aliens in the country of Philistia for seven years. Then, when the seven years were up, the woman and her family came back. She went directly to the king and asked for her home and farm.
4-5 The king was talking with Gehazi, servant to the Holy Man, saying, “Tell me some stories of the great things Elisha did.” It so happened that as he was telling the king the story of the dead person brought back to life, the woman whose son was brought to life showed up asking for her home and farm.
Gehazi said, “My master the king, this is the woman! And this is her son whom Elisha brought back to life!”
6 The king wanted to know all about it, and so she told him the story. The king assigned an officer to take care of her, saying, “Make sure she gets everything back that’s hers, plus all profits from the farm from the time she left until now.”

Net op die regte tyd, stap die vrou in by die koning om vir haar grond terug te vra en sy word vergoed met hulle grond terug plus soveel meer.

Die Here het dit, hy is in beheer van ons lewe en het lank voor dinge gebeur al 'n plan hoe om ons paaie reguit te maak, maar natuurlik is dit Sy tyd en nie ons tyd nie.  Ons moet net op ons donkie klim en vertrou, daar sal soveel meer na jou toe kom as wat jy ooit kon droom.  Lê jou dinge by Jesus se voete vat dit na die begin, na waar alles begin het, by Jesus, by sy belofte.  

Vanaand dans ek opgewonde in my kamer vir wat voorlê en ek weet verseker!  HY het my lewe in sy hande!  I am FREEFALLING to FLY!  Ek klim nou ook op my donkie en ek vat dit na waar my lewe begin.  Ek was bevoorreg om by Passion 2016 te wees Saterdagaand, so ek sing en dans vanaand op my antwoord wat ek nie gekry het nie, want ek weet hy is in beheer en my vrees lê ek neer by die begin, by Jesus, want Hy is in beheer.

Oh, and I've seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we're all searching
For answers only You provide
Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are
And I'm loved by you
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am