It has been an eventful couple of years since my last post in February 2016. After my divorce, I thought it would be impossible for me to love another man, just for the simple reason that I loved my ex husband so much, although I knew that we will never be together again and that he moved on.
I met a man that was funny and got my sense of humor, within six months I fell pregnant and needless to say he left and moved on with his life. The hardest for me in this entire situation was to disappoint my dad, because I knew immediately that this man was not going to stick around for me and that this will hurt my dad the most, because I know that he doesn't want me to be lonely, because we both been very lonely in our lives and I know that this possibility for me for the rest of my life will be devastating to him. I knew that at age 43 with a baby will bring a couple of challenges for me. Despite all this I wasn't broken and just got up and wiped my tears and moved on.
I knew I could't do my pottery business with a baby by my side so I started my decor business, Melkbosstrand Decor & Functions, funny enough this was something I always wanted to do. When I was in grade 12, I wanted to enrol in a course after school to go into the event planning business, but computers was the future and I started a course in Dos after school, I did not even know if I passed the year, I was not interested at all, needless to say that was time wasted. So 24 years later I started doing what I wanted to do all my life. Everything happened so easily for me, I got my first wedding and it snowballed from there, so it was confirmation that God's hand was in it. Although I always knew that Sandra Wilhelmina will always be picked up again.
So little Mia is now two years old and at last I am painting again. I am so blessed to be able to do both.
I started painting magnolia flowers, but when my sister send me a picture of a poppy flower, I googled the meaning and came across the following. "What does the Poppy flower mean? For many cultures, the Poppy is a symbol of: Restful sleep and recovery, consolation for a loss or death in the family, remembering the fallen of various wars and armed conflicts, a lively imagination, peace in death, messages delivered in dreams, resurrection and eternal life, beauty and success, extravagance and luxury."
I thought that this is so perfect for this season in my life and for the new Sandra Wilhelmina. Although I went through some difficult times while falling pregnant again and raising little Mia, I can with 100% say that I now am recovered of very hard times after my divorce, she gave me the distraction I needed to heal and recover. Although I can definitely not say I have restful sleeps yet, I know that this will also come soon. Although my divorce was not a death, I see it as something very similar, because I've lost my mother, I know that the "loss" of my husband was like death to me and Mia somehow brought consolation to our little family of two and now we are three, I now have peace in "death" of my marriage.
May the future bring beauty and success with a dash of extravagance and luxury!
My naam is Suzanne en ek sien my klein koninkryk besigheid waar ek funksionele keramiek en ander items vervaarder as 'n bediening om 'n boodskap van vreugde en genade te kan bring deur stukkies uit my eie lewe te deel.